Thursday, April 24, 2008

Whatever Works

I bought this Gerber Daisy to cheer myself up. It could be the weather, or hormones, or my job, or all of these things, but I'm in a foul mood--depressed, confrontational, emotional. Happy times. When I'm in a mood that's hard to shake, I struggle to find ways to pull myself out.

I'm working "out front" all day (dealing with students face to face), and I've brought the flower out with me, back to my desk for lunch, and it'll be coming along with me for the rest of the afternoon.

What can I say? Desperate times call for desperate measures. So, flower power it is. The daisy reminds me spring and summer will eventually arrive (and the snow MUST leave). Also, I'll be using orange Gerber Daisies in my bridal bouquet, which makes me picture our wedding day and how happy I'll feel standing across from my Sweet Robert.

Plus, I got an A- in my writing class.

Like I say, whatever works.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

This too shall pass

And it does. You never feel when it's a bad day, or week (or Easter dinner) that it's going to end, but it does. And what a difference a week makes.

I had my ipod on while I was walking to work this morning. "If I should fall behind", by Bruce Springsteen and the E Street band was playing. This is the first song Rob and I will dance to on our wedding day. : ) Since we got engaged, we've been pondering what that first dance song should be. We share many meaningful songs, but with both of us being so into music we wanted the lyrics to be just right.

The first time Rob showed me the video for this song (from the Springsteen video anthology) it was sometime early in the relationship, and I cried. The lyrics made me sad because that's how I imagined marriage to be and that's clearly not how my first marriage was.

"We said we'd walk together baby come what may
That come the twilight should we lose our way
If as we're walkin a hand should slip free
I'll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me."

A year and a half later, current day: Rob was playing another video concert by Bruce Springsteen which featured a live version of this song (if you haven't figured it out, Bruce is Rob's favourite artist). Hearing the lyrics again, they sounded like wedding vows to me. I thought it would be the perfect first song and Rob agreed.

Back to this morning, the sun was out and the air was crisp as I walked to work. While the song played, I imagined what it would feel like dancing with Rob on our wedding day. He and I have a history of dancing together. : ) We slow danced on our first date to Doc Walker, as mentioned many times, and it was this first dance which captivated me. During our two-step lessons at Ranchman's, I fell in love with Rob, and it was standing across from him on the dance floor when I thought, "This is what it will feel like when we stand across from one another to get married." Then Rob proposed to me on the dance floor during a Doc Walker concert.

I was smiling and filled with love when I got to work. I thanked God for bringing Rob into my life and for blessing me in so many other ways.

This Friday marks our two year Anniversary. While we were at the Flames game on Saturday night, Rob had a pleasant surprise for me:

Need I say more?